Today is nothing new, really.  I'm down 2 lbs from last week, but I feel blubbery, flabby, and my stomach is hanging over my jeans as I sit here and type this all out.  Repulsive.

Anyway, I wish I knew just one person in my area with an ED.  I'm sure there are plenty, but who'd open up about that?  It's not exactly the type of "common interest" people discuss, like, "Well my fave TV show is Family Guy, but my fave way to avoid eating is to read an ED related book."  I just want someone to actually speak to, who understands.

I made a big stride and told my mom about everything.  I'm 23 now, though, so she just lets me know she's concerned, and doesn't try to control anything that I do, and I love her even more for it.  I have sort of led her to believe that I'm much better now, though, and that I only have "bad days" every now and then...  And I DO talk to her on my bad days, which helps, but... I just can't be as honest as I wish I could be, and she gets so sad for me.

I'm rambling.  The point - does anyone live in Florida?

here's the plan:

rice cake and fruit cup for breakfast : 75 cal
grilled chicken salad for lunch : 200 cal (small portions)
caesar salad for dinner : 150 cal

and tomorrow, nothing but water and a little fruit juice.  my first fast!
wish me luck, i'm doing the same for all of you!

TT.

Current Mood: hopeful

I was really discouraged last night about how my week had been going, but thanks to all you wonderful girls, I had a great day today!  Only 390 cals today, and it was all pretty healthy.

I went grocery shopping today and bought grapes, peaches, and rice cakes.  I found a really yummy caramel flavor, and it's only 50 cals for one cake!  It's perfect for when I want something sweet and candy-ish, and it's actually kind of filling.

I'm having lots of lettuce and grapes tomorrow, and then I'm doing a one-day fast on Sunday.  I'm really excited, because it's my first time fasting, but I know it won't be my last.

Anyway, thanks again, I hope everyone is doing well and achieving their goals!

Current Mood: cheerful

So this is the third week of restriction, excercise, and discipline.

It's hard, but I finally feel like I have some control in my life.  My body is my own, and any stress I have is released when I'm working out and fasting.  I feel so much better than I have in months.

I feel like me.